It's been long

Realizing its months since I last blog. When to create a private word press instead. Its better to post everything there without anyone knowing. When I had no one to talked to I will rant everything there.

Drifted apart

There are too many things I wanted to say, but i just dont know where should i start and who should i say to.

I really miss those days. Talk/Text everyday, meet almost everyday and never forgets about each other. But why? Things became so differently compare to the past? Is it me? I really dont know. What can i do now? I really dont know.

First few weeks of May

School was fine. Though same routine over again and again. Had test, wasnt that bad. But too may careless mistakes. Its been 1 months since school start and i didnt really know anyone. Been quiet in school, daydreaming. It just seems millions of thoughts running through my mind over and over again. I really dont know why. Life simply just sucks.

Last week of April

Last week of april, School was fine. Test on thursday wasnt as hard as i thought. Getting results next week. Back to high sch, didnt manage to see any teachers as they were all busy. But still, had great time there.

It's been a week

I am back posting. Last day if school for the week! Yes, long weekends! Well this week wasn't that bad. At least I made 2 new friends, it better than none. Couldn't imagine how I had to spent my 2years.. Sigh. How I wish, things turns out differently. I'm really afraid I couldn't make it. I've got 3modules yet 2 of it I don't understand at all. Shit, test is just next Tuesday?! Sigh. I don't see things are getting better...

Yes, its fridayyyyyy

Last day of school for the week. Its been a week of school. Omg, i still didn't know any friends. Sigh. How i wish im back to secondary school life. This year is worse than last year. I thought it would be better but... Well, its friday school ends early. Today wasn't a bad day due to some reason. Hahah, shy*. I am happy! Woohooo!!!

School Life

Last day of orientation, well sad to say that i didn't make any new friends. Lesson start tomorrow. Wondering if im able to cope well. Second day of school and got assignment report to complete. Sigh, seriously hate school now. Not even week if school, i felt so tired and moodless. When will it be better? SIGH.

First day

School life started, I couldn't imagine I'm really different class with them. I hate orientation. First day of school simply sucks. I can just die seriously. In school being loner. Sigh. It's even worse then last year. Dread going to school everyday. I miss OE, but I miss secondary school life more. Can time pass faster for now. I really hate the start of school. Fuckmylife.

Universal Studio

Went to USS with them. Awesome day spent at there. The roller coaster is simply AWESOMEEEEEE! Shout our lungs out. We manage to sit a few times of the rides repeatedly, great day spent there!

Picnic with lovely girls!

Great days with lovely girls! Meet up for a picnic at Achorvale CC. They never fails to make my day. Our craziness, camwhoare, gossip and our never ending H2H talks. Spend my day with them. Fly kite but fail only for few mintues and then drop down. But still I had a Awesomeeeeee day! We took lots of pictures, I will upload tomorrow! I'm glad that I had them with me. Thank you girls for making my day!
Whenever I'm happy, time always pass the fastest. When I'm sad, time seems to take forever to pass. Why is that so? Sigh.

Disappointment

Everything turns out differently. I didn't get into the same class as Wenli and Lihong. After I know, I totally dread going to school now. No more, accompanion during lessons, no more gossips during lessons, no more attending late lessons together. Sigh, everythings not the same anymore. Totally upset when all of us are being separated I hope their advisor would allow them to transfer to my class. Please god, let us be in the same class again. I promise, with them with me I would definitely score better! I really need them with me, please:(

Shoppingggggggggg!

Shopping with Babe.
Far east, Wisma , bugis then homed. Babe accompany me home, she came to slack at my place. Camwhoare at my place, more on facebook. Enjoy my day with her.
Bought things for school. Gosh school is starting just in few days time, im totally not excited. NERVOUS*
Well, who cares I am gonna to enjoy the last few days of hoildays. Picnic tomorrow with my lovely girls. Saturday Unverisal Studio with Bestfriend and the rest. Can't wait! :)

Selfish

Maybe sometimes, I only think for myself and not others. Others may be worse than me, its just that I didn't know. I tends to hide everything to myself not because is better, but I don't want to add my problems to people around me. Sigh. Crying doesn't seems helping. Nothing is helping. I don't see things is changing for better.

Unpredictable

Had a bad dream last night.
Talk with Kaixin last night, sigh life unpredictable. We won't know what will happened the next second.
Babe, Stay strong alright. I could understand how you feel. I don't know how to cheer you up either cause I myself also can't. If you need me, i will be here. Take care,

Pray

Went to visit(bai) my dad this morning. We really miss him terribly. Mom cried non-stop, i didnt stop her but cried with her. Because i know it helps after crying everything out. Sigh, if only things could start over again, I swear I would treat everything differently .

Bad mood ruins me to have bad tempered.
I'm not petty, I'm just not in the mood. You wouldnt know how I feel.
You left me speechless.
Why do I feel like we're drifting far apart?

Sometimes I really hate myself.

I wish things didn't happened at all. That's impossible, I always believe things happened for a reason, but sometimes I wonder what are the reason are and why must this even happen? I hate myself for not being strong enough. Whenever I see my mom cried, I can't control. Why can't just everything start over again? I know that once gone, are gone forever it won't come back again. Nobody will understand how I feel. I really wish someone could hug me tight and cry together with me. Anybody? Please. I doubt none.

Sunny afternoon

Last week of school holidays. I'm totally not excited for school at all. I hate making new friends and 3 hell days of orientation. Simply sucks.

Afternoon, Bought lunched from compass and headed back home with YihJen. We chatted for hours continuously. Talking almost everything. We even wonder how our future will be like after few year? Wondering. Well, we talked back about secondary life too. Missing those great old days. No matter how much we miss those were the past I would turn back too. If only time could turn back.

New envoirment

New house. Been staying here for 2 weeks. Not really used to it yet. Babes came to my house today, slacked, chat, gossip and jokes. APRIL FOOL DAY, all of them got tricked by me. They are simply awesome.

Shall head to bed now! Meeting babes for jogging later! :D

Miss this girl of mine.

Its been a long time.

i swear this year pass freaking fast. Its already april, and im like starting next next week?

Emotional nights

Feeling so sad now...
It's not the same without you.
Miss your presence.
MIssing you terribly.
I hope you're happy up there,
I hope you're see me up there.
I want you to know, I miss you a lot, a lot , a lot.

Overdues Pictures

Whole of MARCH

Vivo with bestfriend.
Shopping and Singing! Awesome day.

Happy ending. Wedding dinner.

Bantam trip, 2day 1 nights.

The fun fair.

Meet up with girls and the rest. Played 3times bumper car and 1ride the spinning one. Awesome with them. Although, quite expensive but worth it. Dinner at burger king, chat and full of nonsense and jokes. Cant stop laughing. Well, it was a great day with them! http://yfrog.com/h21wpwtj

After a long long time

It's been so long since I blog. Hmm, where should I start either?

Start with today, well back to high school. New pricipical with stupid school rules for the ex students. But anyway we had fun, with the card game. Now with scars and bruises. Went to look at new house, misspey went with us too. Yes, around march I will be able to move in!

I miss high school really. Miss those days, in class.
I still remember sec1 all of us play newspaper ball throwing around like mad.
After school, stayed back at counseling room just to talk, play and all nonsense.
Skip CCA, took attendance then we went off! Hahaah.
Went toilet normally together in a group. Take our own sweet time only.
Talk and laugh loudly in class like no teacher.
I still remember our class even make more than one of the teacher cry.
- Remember we got the best cleaniness.
- 3rd in hamper
- CNY decoration.
I will miss those days. Secondary life was much better compare to more.

14Feb- Happy valentine's day! Thanks wenli, for the roses.
15Feb- Got in admin. Same course, with same of the classmates. Yes, lucky including WENLI. Pray hard, that we will got in the same class! I really hope!
16Feb - Graduation day.


Should start from Jan,

Well, work for like only 7days for some nonsense event. Selling those crystal salt lights. Damn bored ttm.
Nevermind, at least I earn $3**. Although, not much but for only 7days? Quite worth and slack. But I hate working alone. I miss working for nets. Those days were best, I swear.

Chinese new year, well this year we can't celebrate for those who know me will know the reason not gonna say much. So we Just went to relatives visiting. I don't feel weird, without you together for visiting. Because maybe for many years you didn't follow us around for celebrating CNY either. But I really miss your presence with us at home. Sigh. I will miss you, can you be back? Helped my mom at her factory, damn busy. Seeing, her so busy and tiring, I felt so useless and upset. I couldn't help her much either. Sigh.

8months

Time flies, its 8months without you. I couldnt imagine time passes so quickly. I miss you.
I could tell that mom was very upset, although she everytime act one happy.
I really miss you badly:(

High School

Back to high school, been a long time since I when back there..
Had lunch and talk with Miss pey. Sorry to take up your time. But enjoy talking to you:D
Counseling room played ugly doll was awesome, talk and gossips.

Class chalet

Class chalet at changi. BBQ, blind mice, UNO and uglier uglier. This games make most of us hyper. Ton for the whole night. One day of chalet isn't enough for us. Time files.

First day of 2011

What a 'good' start of 2011, falling sick.