This year

Let's see, hmm it started of well. But then it turn out totally bad. Maybe the last year of few months things turn out to be bad. Had huge misunderstanding among besties and friends. Hmm, glad that everything turn out to be alright now. Hmm, new start, new environment,new school,new friends and teachers. Somehow secondary was much better. Hmm, many things after few months passed. Sigh.

Hopefully 2011 will be a better year.

That's my bestfriend. VIVIEN. Darling, thanks for being there for me always. You are always the first to be there for me always. You're awesome. This year many things happened. We are not in the same school this year. How i wish we were in the same school. But no matter what, you are always in my heart. I am glad to have you. We had gone through all the shits happened this year. We made it through. Hopefully next year will be better for us. Stay happy darling, I love you. You're best thing i ever had.

She is a good friend of mine. WENLI. Since secondary till now we had been the same class. This year fated to be in the same class with her again. Out of 8classes we got into the same. Lucky uh? Thanks for always being there for me this year. Maybe god knows, thats why lets us to be in the same class. Hmm, without you this year, i don't know how. Thanks BABE. You never fails to make me laugh in class everyday. Thinking back in school, we seems like sleeping everyday in class. HAHA. Hopefully, next year we will be in the same class again. We have been through a lot year. At least we made it. Thanks for everything.
Lots of love, Jean

Thats my another 2 good friend of mine. Nicoleen and YihJen. They had been with me all along too. Thanks girls. I will remember you guys for been with me when i was so helpless. You guys always made my day awesome in school. Although, we are not in same class but at least i am glad that we are still in the same school. Haha, remember wenli and I always when in your class to have 'lesson'. That seems like we are together in the same class right. Day pass by, and we known each other for 5years. Time files. I miss those times in secondary life. Those memories will always kept in my heart. Thanks for always being there for me. I appreciate it.

Lots of love, Jean

Results today

Afraid, worried and nervous.
Results out later, I was wondering how much GPA will I get. Sigh.
I hope I won't disappoint my mom and dad.

Last day of 2010

I have been waiting for this day to come after so long. Time files. Enough of everything this year.

My girls.

Meet up girls. Marina sq for steamboat. Great day with them.

CHIRSTMAS

When ICE SKATING with darling. Awesome.

Sigh, its 7months since the day you left. Missing you every single day. Miss you presence.
7months without you, terrible. Miss you so much dad. I hope you are doing well.

CHRISTMAS EVE!

Meet darlings in the morning to supermarket. When to Vivien darling house to prepare food for our picnic. Baked cake, potato salad and pasta. Suppose to go fort canning picnic ended up raining. So stayed and her house for our 'PICNIC'. The food turn out to be so nice. Photos with darlings. Will upload soon! After that headed to Remus house for party. Played pool at his house. Party till morning.

A day out with girls!

I enjoy my day with them. Marina sq KBOX for 3 hours.
Let plan an outing again. Thanks girls. Never fails to make me happy:D

This week

A busy week, studying for test and test. Its really killing. because i dont understand a thing.
I really want to give up. But i don't disappoint anyone who had hopes for me. Please i hope i can make it through next year. Hopefully uh.

Next Wednesday, i not been living here anymore. I will miss this place ALOT. With all the memories with my dad. 7years of memories.
I gonna be homeless for 2months. HOW? Sigh.

Studying at ACC

Studying with them at ACC. I think we talk more than we study is it?
Let's work hard for next year. Jiayou!

Sakae Sushi.

Sakae at compass after school. Breakfast + Lunch + Dinner.
3PM-5PM. Yes, hoilday tomorrow!

A day out with darling

Out to VIVO with bestfriend. When KTV for 4hours. Sing till shiok. A great day with her. You made my day darling. Never fails to make me happy. Thanks.

YihJen's birthday!

HAPPY SEVENTEEN BIRTHDAY YIHJEN!

All the best in everything. May all your wishes come true. Hope you like the surprises and birthday present we give you. Stay happy always.

2nd week of Novmeber.

Projects is driving me insane.
I wish now was last year. I still remember when last year we are all now working and enjoying our holiday but now. Sigh.

I got so many things to be done this few months.
Homeless for months. Oh god. How am i suppose to survive? Without a house? Sigh.

Last day of october.

Last day of October, time flies. Couldn't imagine its another month.

Well meet up with Shah Feroz at bugis. Its been a long long time since we met then. After that look for darling at her work place. The shop was so busy.

Once a time.

They came to my house. Maybe is the last time. Sigh. Moving house like less then a month time. Started to study today. Ended up, talked more than we study.

School tomorrow, new month new start!
Everything start again! Another month!

First Halloween Night.

Halloween at Escape. First time going for halloween. Its wasn't that great. Cause we went there late and didn't really get to see any ghosts. Priate Ship just once took us 55mins to queue. Darling and I decided to go to USS next year for Halloween next year!

I said to darling,

To me you are awesome. She said Tell me about it.

You are awesome because you makes me happy.
You are awesome because you are always there for me.
You are awesome because you said that life has never been fair. Having a best friend like me and it wasn't fair to others.
You are awesome because you said that you will be my nothing because nothing last forever.
You are awesome just because you are my best friend.
You are awesome just the way you are.
I love you.

Just another normal day.

Back to high school. High school is still the best place.
I hope,i really hope.


Everyone has their own problems because there's nothing perfect.

Nothing's forever so don't bother wishing things that would be forever.

Time files, 5months.

I suppose to act as nothing seems to be happening. But..during lesson i wrote on the paper date 25May2010. What's wrong am i thinking? Damn. The more i tried not to think the more i can't.
When i know i wrote the wrong date. I started thinking back that date what happen and everything. I couldn't stop my tears. I wanted to control but i just can't. Sorry friends made you guys worried. But i can't help it either.It's hard for the one who leaves but it's harder for the ones left behind.

My form teacher text me. When i read her text i cried more worse, but what she said was so true that wake me up from everything. I know he wouldn't want to see me this way too. But i really just cant help it.

She wrote this,

Once upon a time, there was a girl who lived in a beautiful house with her happy family of 5 and a dog. She is the eldest love child of the parents. Although her family is not perfect,like many other families too. Her parents love her dearly. One day, her dad is in pain and has to go. He went so hostility that he has no chance to say goodbye. But he has no choice to cause the pain is unbearable. So he left, hoping that his little love ones will understand that he needs to go and hopes that they will forgive him leaving them suddenly. Not surprisingly, the whole family was very upset with his departure and couldn't understand why he left so suddenly, ESP his eldest love child, Jean. She cried whenever she thinks about her dad and question why he just leaves them all alone in this hostile world. The dad saw them being so hurt and tried to them that he has no choice. He asked for their forgiveness but no one can hear him. Seeing his family in pain added more misery to him as he is also alone on the other side. Eventhough the pain in his body is gone, the pain in his heart remains.

All of us one happiness,your dad ones you to be happy too.

Thank you guys i know you guys are always there for me. Don't worry, i am fine.

Remembering Sunday.

Today i can really see you guys true colours. Take everything you want.
Tomorrow 5months already. Sigh.
Time files, i couldn't imagine this 5 month without you. Seriously, where are you now?
Do you know how much we miss you? Sigh.
If only time could turn back.I really dont know how to explain the feeling missing you.
Cried and cried you wont seems to be back. Wont make me feel better also. No point at all. Sigh.
1MORE MONTH will be homeless. Sigh, i still missing staying here because its the memories with you.

God, why did you let him to leave us to early?

Its friday.

Slacking at starbucks. We have lots of things to talk about.
Back to NCHS next week. As next week is the last day of school for the secondary.
Opps, someone kiss me that day leh. SHY. Who ask you want bet with me. Hehe.
Time files, its been a year. I couldn't imagine that so much things happened this year.

A long day.

A boring and long hours in school. Lesson boring,yet long hours. I need to start my revision soon. I didnt did well for my test. Badly done. I knew i couldn't make it through. Sigh.

First Week Schhool Friday.

Travel to College Central(Bishan) return F1 unifrom.
Then back to high school.
I dont know why whenever i go back, my mood when down.
Maybe because my dad always send me to school and back home there. Sigh
I promise if i go back again it, i wont cried.

Treasure what you have now, dont regret when is too late.

10.10.10

Look! So sweet of her. She send this to me on 10.10.10 10:10pm. Isn't it sweet.

I spent my day with her! Hehe.
Tamp and back to compass slack at starbucks.