Time files, 5months.

I suppose to act as nothing seems to be happening. But..during lesson i wrote on the paper date 25May2010. What's wrong am i thinking? Damn. The more i tried not to think the more i can't.
When i know i wrote the wrong date. I started thinking back that date what happen and everything. I couldn't stop my tears. I wanted to control but i just can't. Sorry friends made you guys worried. But i can't help it either.It's hard for the one who leaves but it's harder for the ones left behind.

My form teacher text me. When i read her text i cried more worse, but what she said was so true that wake me up from everything. I know he wouldn't want to see me this way too. But i really just cant help it.

She wrote this,

Once upon a time, there was a girl who lived in a beautiful house with her happy family of 5 and a dog. She is the eldest love child of the parents. Although her family is not perfect,like many other families too. Her parents love her dearly. One day, her dad is in pain and has to go. He went so hostility that he has no chance to say goodbye. But he has no choice to cause the pain is unbearable. So he left, hoping that his little love ones will understand that he needs to go and hopes that they will forgive him leaving them suddenly. Not surprisingly, the whole family was very upset with his departure and couldn't understand why he left so suddenly, ESP his eldest love child, Jean. She cried whenever she thinks about her dad and question why he just leaves them all alone in this hostile world. The dad saw them being so hurt and tried to them that he has no choice. He asked for their forgiveness but no one can hear him. Seeing his family in pain added more misery to him as he is also alone on the other side. Eventhough the pain in his body is gone, the pain in his heart remains.

All of us one happiness,your dad ones you to be happy too.

Thank you guys i know you guys are always there for me. Don't worry, i am fine.